When I started exploring the problems I faced choosing clothing, choosing whatever items, and getting an extreme amount of thoughts of me being a girl, I started exploring LGBTQIA+. At first, I thought I was agender, because something didn't match well, but being agender did. At least at that time. After that, I started using they/them as my pronouns, and things felt okay for a while. Until something felt wrong again. I explored more and thought I was genderfluid, because that explained why I constantly think about myself as a female. At least, I thought it did. However, recently I've noticed that I use she/her in my native language way too much. I kept correcting myself, replacing it with he/him. And one night I thought, what if I'm just lying to myself? I mean, the whole point was the fact that I kept denying myself as a girl even when I felt like it. I thought it was just me being genderfluid, but recently the usage of she/her and other stuff has increased a lot.
In fact, thinking of myself as a girl makes me "calm" since I experience nearly zero emotions. Feeling "calm" could be compared to feeling "good" or "at home" for a person with emotions.
In conclusion, for my whole life, I felt quite a lot of similarities and thoughts of being a girl and being feminine. So, I'm going with she/her, they/them. Not even because I choose that, but because I can't stop using it, and this is what makes me calm and relaxed.